How do I say what I really want to say without offending? I can't. So, I write, delete and try again.
There are things that are best left unsaid. Some of them are best left unsaid forever. Some are best left unsaid for a period of time.
Will I ever say what I want to say at this moment? I don't know. Probably. Possibly.
But for now, I'll leave things unsaid.
Or not.
There are two words I'm struggling with at this moment.
The first word is family. This is the definition I mean when I use the term family: 3. A group of persons sharing common ancestry.
The second word that is weighing heavy on my heart today is exclusion. A keeping apart.
In my heart, I believe that anytime the second word is used the first word is voided.
These two words void out the other when used together.
Maybe I did finally say what has been weighing heavily on my heart for so long now.
When exclusion is practiced, there is no family.
A family has no desire for exclusion.
You can't have both. You can have one or the other. But not both.
I had morning coffee with Jody just now...and could not agree more. I have felt exclusion from family members and there is almost no other hurt that can run so deep. I hope that you are not hurting. You know where to find me if you need a frined.
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