Tis the Season

As Christmas draws closer and closer we sneak a peek at the new year. With the new year comes a time to reflect upon where we are in our life.

That's what I've been doing lately. Reflecting. Navel-gazing.

I think I'm at the spot in life where it's time to consider a new path. It's scary. But I've been unhappy with this path for some time now. The upside? It paid the bills. The downside? It keeps away from family and friends. Is the money worth it? At one time, yes it was. Now it's not worth it.

I'm getting older. My husband who started out older than me is still older than me. :-)

I want to spend time with my family and friends.

My new goal is to never spend Christmas alone as long as I have at least one family member above ground.

But would I be at this point in my decision process if I weren't spending this Christmas alone? I'm not sure I would be. I think I'd still be attracted to the money.

Suddenly the money looks pathetic compared to laughter and love. It looks cold compared to family and friends dropping in unannounced. It looks meaningless. I realize we still have to have money to live, but we can have less and have a better life.

So, it appears it's time for me to stop traveling. It also appears it's time for me to find a new occupation. As I look at the options available, I realize there are so many different things I can do.

I have no idea where I will be this time next year. Not physically. Physically I will be home. In my house. With my husband, dogs, family and friends close by. What type of job or occupation will I have? Not a clue. But it's an exciting time for me. Because when I leave Alaska I know I'll be going home and this time I'll stay.